another sleepless night....tears are always by the side of my eyes....why??
Because i just lost my Love of my life, the only gal whom i really only loved...Why am i so stupid??? Why??
I love her....how much? i don't noe.... I just love her very much.... I guess love doesn't need any reasons at all right?

The things we planned.... the things we were going to be doing together... How and Where....
Shanghai and Japan.... To go look for Wu Yang, to eat the Da Niang Dumplings..... Japan, Tokyo Disneyland, Shopping at all the famous districts... Where are they gonna be??? Gone???

Just like the sand castle you spend so much building... And all of a sudden, the waves came and swept everything off....
Nothing is left... And you can't help wondering why??? Why did it have to come onto my beach? Why???

I Love you... Although i know what i say now is almost close to meaningless...but you know....
In your heart you know,,, it means something to you... You know... Unless you prefer to deny it,,,
Then i guess there's nothing i can do... but to shed more tears???

雪中莲 (xue zhong lian) is such a appropriate song now.... such a beautiful song....

6 years of time together... is not something so easily forgotten.... You know it, And so do I....
What we had is much much more and stronger than all this crap we are going through...
Why does it have to end like this??? Does it have to?? No, it doesn't have to end like this... IT DOESN'T

I don't even know why i'm typing all this out....

Because i need to let her know all this,,, Even though it too late??? Like she said....

It's never too late.... Cos what we had was much much deeper then she can realised....
Cos it's all in the heart....
Pls don't deny the heart of it's voice....Please....
And don't deny me.....

So sorry that i took up so much of her time...depriving her of bath time...and she have to wake up at 7 tomorrow...

I miss you!!!!
I really love you!!!! You know i do...
傻老婆 (sha lao po) don't know if i can still call you that...

"To Err is Human"..... Yes, i screwed up....but i'm willing to spend the rest of my life loving and making up to you...
This i promise.... What i need is a chance....
















More light is shed today, regarding the disappearance of the big boss...
Mood in the department??? Very low morale, at least that's how i feel....
He is so spiritual to the whole department.... Like a father... to me.... At least that's the feeling he gave me...
A mentor to JL, A good boss to JJ....
Hai....

freaking day!!!

I still can’t believe what I read…
But I don’t think I have a choice of whether to accept or not.
Like she said she’s move on, and she’s happy.
I guess she’s right! Things are not the same as 3 years ago. The main difference here? There’s somebody else waiting in the wing…
Hope you will be happy in the arms of your newfound love!!!
And i can totally give up an hope of a patch back....
Pls don't contact me anymore, it's just for the better...

Freaking day…lots of bad news been circulating in my head…
First, the above one I just mentioned…
Second, the big head in my department is gone… Why?? I have no idea either…
it's just so sudden!!! And just yesterday i was having breakfast with him and my supervisor...and in a puff!
He's out of the company... Sad?? Not really, course i'm not really close too him nor does my job requires me to report direct to him...But he's such a good boss, in my other colleagues' eyes....
How did this happen??? That's the only thought that i have in my mind....
How? How?

Hopefully more will be reveal in the coming weeks....imagine a director level personel can just disappear over-night! What else can't happen...Life is so unpredictable and fraglie...

All the best to him though....he's a good man!!! God will watch over good people like him...Sigh...


An quan gan (sense of security)....what is that??? I really wonder....just because i'm 6 feet tall. Do you measure An Quan Gan by one's height???

Anyway...i don't have anybody in my life now to give her that feeling....YES!! Her....i'm totally straight!!!

Sorry my friend...

hmmm....think i really pissed a friend off today....
Was really tired from work and i sort of dozed off to sleep around 8 plus and by the time i woke up, the time was like 12 am
OMG....how did i manage to dozed off for so long???
Anyway, my friend wanted me to help check something online....by the time i got back to her, i think she had somebody else to do the job already...
Feel so bad, can't help at all....
Workload at the company is getting more and more....kinda drained everyday....
Looks like i must go find some sort of recreational activties....

Who do you define somebody as rich???? By the way he behave??? Or the stuff he used or carry????
Hmmm....this is what one my colleague, FP, said...
FP: "Actually Brian you are very rich one hor"
Me: "Huh"
FP: "i saw you at the security with the new apple notebook"
Me: "oh, that har"
FP: "Actually your whole family live at Bt Timah area one right?"
Me: "ya lor, ya lor....my dad purposely want us to experience commoner's way of life so we shifted from landed property to normal HDB flat lor"

Hmmm...why is it when you carry stuff that are a big high techie, people assume you are rich??? Or is it because they don't think i can afford all the new stuff with my merage paycheck???

Hmmm...but i think i'll also pass the same judgement too....

hmmm...what is Jin Ying? (Elites)
what kind of difference do they make in the society?
What about the rest of the folks who are not elites, who prefer to live life in their own ways?
People who just want to get on with their lives as normally as possible....
I think i'm one of those people, i'm what people might say as a lack of ambitions. But i feel that how do you justify if you are consider successful??? And does being a successful persom equate to being a Elite??? Are you going to be happy then?
I don't know, if i know, i probably won't be bloggin here :)
I guess the most important thing is life is that you are HAPPY and knowing what you seek for and want in life...
Peace Out....

wondering....

Why are there pure boy or girl schools??? Where do they come from??? And people who actually see this article, were you from a one-gender only school or a mixed-gender one?

One of my colleague, JL, say it’s tradition…. what kind of tradition is that? Makes me wonder??? Who actually came up with this idea? And why? Anybody out there know the reason? Please enlighten me!!!! I wonder how does it feel like studying in a environment whereby everywhere you turn and see is the same sex (beside the female teachers, if you are in the all boy’s school), kinda boring right? Come to think of it, it’s pretty good too with all the competition, everybody trying to be Alpha Male.
Anyway turn out JL was from a boy secondary school, and he seems really fine with it!!! But who am I to pass judgment???

Sitting at MacDonald’s now…I can’t get the WIFI thingy to work…Damn!! Think I’m going to leave here soon.

Really tired…. can’t sleep….

Don’t you think the human being is the strangest creature in the world???
I do! Course I’m one of those strange one….
It’s been a month or so since I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 plus years….
Everything is like such a bloody swirl…I really felt a part of me has suddenly died.
Why is it that people don’t cherish what the have, only to regret when they have lost it?
Been pondering on this question for weeks….
I really wish I had never initialed the breakup…and I really want her back…

I found my best love, but I didn’t treasure her.
I felt regretful after that
It’s the ultimate pain in the world
If God can give me another chance, I will tell her three words
“I Love You”
And if God want me to set a time limit, I’ll say this love will last ten thousand years.