Careless Whisper....

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But noone's gonna dance with me
Please stay

And I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know your not a fool



Happy weekend!!!

Love is not time, is timing....
Hahahaha....funny....that's all

Thanks for all the smses and emails, i'm getting back on my feet liao...

It's a mistake and i just got to learn from it! That's all! Not much too be thinking about anymore.
Like a book, when you finish the chapter, you just have to close it and put it down. That's how life works...

Thanks, KKK, for the offer, but not free this weekend, can't go find you to take me go jalan jalan...hahahaha


Finally it's my off-day, after 4 tough days, especially when you have to work with my senior...


Like, PR said... you still young lah!!! If somebody can forget such a long relatioship and get together with somebody new within a month. You should know liao lah. Rome is not bulit in a day. Probably, even before you somebody is wooing her liao le. And the distance le? You are here, she is there. Aiyah bound going to happen one lah! Just sooner or later! You still young lah! Still have lots of chances one lah! Always hate it when people say that i'm young!!! Makes me feel like a kid!!! Maybe when i'm at my workplace i'm really a kid to all of them. So that's why all of them treat me like a younger brother...

"Shuai" (good-looking) How do you define "Shuai"? I know this word doesn't have anything to do with me, But i hate it when those PRC colleagues use it on me. Firstly, Could you all please stop it! It's really getting on my nerve. But as the good colleagues i am, i can't lose my temper with you ladies over this sort of petty matter!!! Secondly, i know how i look and i'm 1000% sure i'm nowhere near "shuai", so either you people are having a good time making fun of me, or you are just plain blind!!!!

That's all for tonight....


Hai...she just had to turn up and screw all my offdays up....DAMN!!!

Chelsea lost!!!

How could Liverpool won??? I think the Gods must be really taking care of them for them to win this match against Chelsea.
My boss's boss (liverpool supporter) was delighted today!!! I guess Liverpool is finally doing something to actually make him feel proud supporting them...

but looking ahead, don't think they are good enough to beat the favorites, AC Milan...whose probably going to win this morning game against PSV....



Nothing much today, just suddenly have the urge to do some travelling alone, to some asian country first, cos european countries are too expensive. The options i'm looking at are probably Taiwan, Shanghai or Bali



Hopeful the july's tioman trip is still on schedule... i really need a break after all this crap that's happening in my life.



Exam result are going to be anounce on the 5th of May, hope that i clear the stupid Maths paper...if not....


thanks Fp for your words of concern this morning








what kind of car do you drive? In singapore, most owners only drive their singapore cars for 7 to 10 years, till the COE expires... But when you are a malaysian, how long do you keep driving your malaysian car?? I had one that i spent 6 years on... and the car decide to change a new owner... hahaha
Like MT said, time to join the queue and bid for a COE and try a local-registered car... you might actually like it (.')
I don't know... maybe i don't need a car now... there are more important things in life to worry about now...

Cheers!!!

i'm back!!!

Finally the long weekend is over, it's been a daze! Totally don't know what i was doing neither do i know what i was thinking about. Some personal problems surfaced...realised that i wasn't as strong as i thought i am. Something to take note about!!!

I just felt it was stupid for her to be with somebody just within a month. I mean...what can he give her? Is there even any form of like or love in it? I really can't think of it. She's terribly upset over the breakup, i can understand that. But that guy! He's just providing her some company and for that she's with him? I thought she knew the difference between Company and Love....apparently i was Wrong...very wrong...But who am i to judge???

Thanks you guys who had noticed that something was wrong with me. and thanks for the concern. I think i just need to try and shift my focus in life. Can't be standing at the same spot forever. It's hurts.... but slowly the tears are drying up... nothing much to be sad about. I chose this path... and i even if i had to walk all the way alone to the end, so be it...i guess...

i can't believe that i'm hoping for lessons to start as soon as possible...i'm going crazy!!!


Congrat and Congrats... Mag!!!! or should i say Mrs Lye!!!!! Wahahahahaha....

Regarding the big boss issue...shourded in secrecy it is.... but as my source :P tells me.... he's fine....
Sources say that he probably offended somebody in the past, and that somebody or some group just waited for their chance to take revenge...and just like that he was "head-shoted"
Don't know what are his plans for now...

another sleepless night....tears are always by the side of my eyes....why??
Because i just lost my Love of my life, the only gal whom i really only loved...Why am i so stupid??? Why??
I love her....how much? i don't noe.... I just love her very much.... I guess love doesn't need any reasons at all right?

The things we planned.... the things we were going to be doing together... How and Where....
Shanghai and Japan.... To go look for Wu Yang, to eat the Da Niang Dumplings..... Japan, Tokyo Disneyland, Shopping at all the famous districts... Where are they gonna be??? Gone???

Just like the sand castle you spend so much building... And all of a sudden, the waves came and swept everything off....
Nothing is left... And you can't help wondering why??? Why did it have to come onto my beach? Why???

I Love you... Although i know what i say now is almost close to meaningless...but you know....
In your heart you know,,, it means something to you... You know... Unless you prefer to deny it,,,
Then i guess there's nothing i can do... but to shed more tears???

雪中莲 (xue zhong lian) is such a appropriate song now.... such a beautiful song....

6 years of time together... is not something so easily forgotten.... You know it, And so do I....
What we had is much much more and stronger than all this crap we are going through...
Why does it have to end like this??? Does it have to?? No, it doesn't have to end like this... IT DOESN'T

I don't even know why i'm typing all this out....

Because i need to let her know all this,,, Even though it too late??? Like she said....

It's never too late.... Cos what we had was much much deeper then she can realised....
Cos it's all in the heart....
Pls don't deny the heart of it's voice....Please....
And don't deny me.....

So sorry that i took up so much of her time...depriving her of bath time...and she have to wake up at 7 tomorrow...

I miss you!!!!
I really love you!!!! You know i do...
傻老婆 (sha lao po) don't know if i can still call you that...

"To Err is Human"..... Yes, i screwed up....but i'm willing to spend the rest of my life loving and making up to you...
This i promise.... What i need is a chance....
















More light is shed today, regarding the disappearance of the big boss...
Mood in the department??? Very low morale, at least that's how i feel....
He is so spiritual to the whole department.... Like a father... to me.... At least that's the feeling he gave me...
A mentor to JL, A good boss to JJ....
Hai....

freaking day!!!

I still can’t believe what I read…
But I don’t think I have a choice of whether to accept or not.
Like she said she’s move on, and she’s happy.
I guess she’s right! Things are not the same as 3 years ago. The main difference here? There’s somebody else waiting in the wing…
Hope you will be happy in the arms of your newfound love!!!
And i can totally give up an hope of a patch back....
Pls don't contact me anymore, it's just for the better...

Freaking day…lots of bad news been circulating in my head…
First, the above one I just mentioned…
Second, the big head in my department is gone… Why?? I have no idea either…
it's just so sudden!!! And just yesterday i was having breakfast with him and my supervisor...and in a puff!
He's out of the company... Sad?? Not really, course i'm not really close too him nor does my job requires me to report direct to him...But he's such a good boss, in my other colleagues' eyes....
How did this happen??? That's the only thought that i have in my mind....
How? How?

Hopefully more will be reveal in the coming weeks....imagine a director level personel can just disappear over-night! What else can't happen...Life is so unpredictable and fraglie...

All the best to him though....he's a good man!!! God will watch over good people like him...Sigh...


An quan gan (sense of security)....what is that??? I really wonder....just because i'm 6 feet tall. Do you measure An Quan Gan by one's height???

Anyway...i don't have anybody in my life now to give her that feeling....YES!! Her....i'm totally straight!!!

Sorry my friend...

hmmm....think i really pissed a friend off today....
Was really tired from work and i sort of dozed off to sleep around 8 plus and by the time i woke up, the time was like 12 am
OMG....how did i manage to dozed off for so long???
Anyway, my friend wanted me to help check something online....by the time i got back to her, i think she had somebody else to do the job already...
Feel so bad, can't help at all....
Workload at the company is getting more and more....kinda drained everyday....
Looks like i must go find some sort of recreational activties....

Who do you define somebody as rich???? By the way he behave??? Or the stuff he used or carry????
Hmmm....this is what one my colleague, FP, said...
FP: "Actually Brian you are very rich one hor"
Me: "Huh"
FP: "i saw you at the security with the new apple notebook"
Me: "oh, that har"
FP: "Actually your whole family live at Bt Timah area one right?"
Me: "ya lor, ya lor....my dad purposely want us to experience commoner's way of life so we shifted from landed property to normal HDB flat lor"

Hmmm...why is it when you carry stuff that are a big high techie, people assume you are rich??? Or is it because they don't think i can afford all the new stuff with my merage paycheck???

Hmmm...but i think i'll also pass the same judgement too....

hmmm...what is Jin Ying? (Elites)
what kind of difference do they make in the society?
What about the rest of the folks who are not elites, who prefer to live life in their own ways?
People who just want to get on with their lives as normally as possible....
I think i'm one of those people, i'm what people might say as a lack of ambitions. But i feel that how do you justify if you are consider successful??? And does being a successful persom equate to being a Elite??? Are you going to be happy then?
I don't know, if i know, i probably won't be bloggin here :)
I guess the most important thing is life is that you are HAPPY and knowing what you seek for and want in life...
Peace Out....

wondering....

Why are there pure boy or girl schools??? Where do they come from??? And people who actually see this article, were you from a one-gender only school or a mixed-gender one?

One of my colleague, JL, say it’s tradition…. what kind of tradition is that? Makes me wonder??? Who actually came up with this idea? And why? Anybody out there know the reason? Please enlighten me!!!! I wonder how does it feel like studying in a environment whereby everywhere you turn and see is the same sex (beside the female teachers, if you are in the all boy’s school), kinda boring right? Come to think of it, it’s pretty good too with all the competition, everybody trying to be Alpha Male.
Anyway turn out JL was from a boy secondary school, and he seems really fine with it!!! But who am I to pass judgment???

Sitting at MacDonald’s now…I can’t get the WIFI thingy to work…Damn!! Think I’m going to leave here soon.

Really tired…. can’t sleep….

Don’t you think the human being is the strangest creature in the world???
I do! Course I’m one of those strange one….
It’s been a month or so since I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 plus years….
Everything is like such a bloody swirl…I really felt a part of me has suddenly died.
Why is it that people don’t cherish what the have, only to regret when they have lost it?
Been pondering on this question for weeks….
I really wish I had never initialed the breakup…and I really want her back…

I found my best love, but I didn’t treasure her.
I felt regretful after that
It’s the ultimate pain in the world
If God can give me another chance, I will tell her three words
“I Love You”
And if God want me to set a time limit, I’ll say this love will last ten thousand years.

I hereby declare....

Today will the offical day whereby my blog will be given the breath of life!!!!!