Today is my off-day. Feeling restless to do anything, wanted to wake up at 7am to go swim at the Yishun Safra Club, but even when the alarm clock went off, I still couldn’t wake up. So I just gave up the idea of going for a swim… Just one of my excuses….

Didn’t had anything to do, just lazied around and surf the internet for the whole morning. till my mum woke up and insisted that I accompany her to NTUC and have lunch with her. We just didn’t know what to eat. Probably both of us are totally sick and tired of the food Kopitiam has to offer. And since we didn’t know what to eat? We just settle for KFC, which happen to be one of her favorite. She had the OR fillet burger, while I had the Zinger burger. Just chatted with her what I was going to be doing today and tomorrow.

Today I’m caught Star Wars Episode III with JL at Causeway Point. The movie was really good!!! The visual effect was really great!! Light-saber fighting was at its best. And the show really tied up lot of loose ends. I really like the scenes where you can see the inner struggle that anakin skywalker have to deal with! How he felt so helpless when facing thing that he can't control!! Cool!!!

After the movie, we met up with FP for the Sakae Sushi Buffet. Didn’t ate much, 3 head, only finished 20 plus plates…pathetic… Maybe the three of us just have small stomach, so we could only eat so little. Hahahaha But I really had a good time chatting with them and having sushi.

Good new!!! Chartered finally pass the Stupid TS audit… So no more stupid last minutes faking about everything. Which I feel it’s a joke. But as what everybody told me, it’s the same everywhere. It doesn’t matter!!! Audit is audit!!!

After dinner, the three of us slowly walk to TK’s place where JL and me is going to be spending the night there! Why? Because, tomorrow we are going to be one of his “brother” for his wedding!!! Whole new experience for me!!! Anyway, when we got there, TK’s brother, Stanley, was with him. We chatted, look through his photo album. Nice album by the way!!! Wonder if next time, mine will be as nice as his???

Next JL and me left for FP’s place which was just couple of stone throw (LOL) away. We just had red wine. Correction!! JL and me had a few glass of red wine while FP just took a few sip!!! Why like that one!!! Tonight seems to be the night where I had the most amount of red wine ever!!! Felt really shiok…maybe I should be doing this more often!!! Think I got a bit tipsy, but not drunk ☺

While drinking away, I got to look at FP’s wedding album, which was just a nice as TK’s. I’m so envious… even though I’m the kind of guy who shuns taking photographs. Maybe when I find the right gal, I will just throw my hesitation away and just into the studio with her and get snappy away… Hahaha

Talk about all the lousy, the funny, the sad, and crazy stuff in life with them. Maybe it’s just the alcohol, or maybe I just want to be heard… glad to have friends like them!!

By the time JL and me got back to TK’s place, it’s like near 2am already. Quickly washed up and get some sleep for TK’s BIG day tomorrow, or should I say today??

Ever been hit on by a gal?

No, I don’t mean getting hit or slapped by a gal for no apparent reason. It’s more of a gal making some form of small talk or flirting with you. At least that how I felt when this new gal talked to me yesterday while I was waiting to collect a certain lot. It is possible that I’m thinking too much too! Such things never happened to me before, so I really don’t know…

She just hinted that she comes over to Singapore very often, even on her off-days; ask if I’m interested to meet up (She isn’t local). Even when I told her that it’s quite unlikely that we could meet up. She even ask me for my number (which I didn’t gave). She asked if I had a g/f, and when I told her I just came out of a relationship, she comment that, “Like me, single-hood is good also mah!!!” I was like…erm…erm!!!

Either I’m thinking too much (a tendency that I have all the time), or I should have asked her for a number or something. Ha ha ha ha…

Today we went out to Causeway Point for lunch in a LORRY, yes, your eyes are not playing trick on you. A LORRY!!! Guess who drove it?? CW aka 医生, which is so funny… the only person sitting in front with CW is KP, as she’s pregnant, can’t expect her to be climbing up the back of the lorry. Along with EY, JL, Yap and me we sat on the back of the lorry. Along the way, it started pouring…DAMN, so we had no choice but to alight at the nearest bus stop and catch a bus to Causeway Point instead…what a joke!!!


Today is the last day, Ah Ben is gonna be in Singapore. He is returning to Sarawak with his wife and daughter. For how long? He didn’t say. Just mention that his wife doesn’t really like the lifestyle here, which I can’t disagree… Living in Singapore is really more hectic than expensive. As compared to living in Malaysia, life is definitely less expensive and less hectic. With a 1k plus salary, you can drive a car already… In Singapore, sure you can drive a car, in your dreams…

Star Wars is opening on the 19th of May….Finally!!!

Brian's brain been down for a couple of day...maybe it's the aftermath of something that happen over the weekend!!
Maybe the healing and forgetting will really begin now...Which is a good thing :-)

Thanks TK for inviting me to be one of your "brothers". Looking foward to whatever that is going to happen on that day. I think it's gonna be a new and fun experience for me. Hahaha...

Over the weekend, the FFBL game was a big win for us!!! Think i got at least 20 pts in the game, this probably goes down as one of my best game of my "career" :P Hope the next game in 2 week time i can perform just as well. As they old saying, "when you lose something, you probably will gain something else where"

Two more weeks and the new term is gonna start again...and it's gonna be 4 days, a week...and all the subjects are taught by male lecturers....Arghh....life is gonna be so boring :'(
Yup life is sure gonna be hectic! But i think i'm gonna be happy...

4 days till Ahhhhhhhh....I want to watch!!!

FP, Cheer up okay? don't let all those stupid stuff get you down lah...There's more to look forward in life then be bothered by what happened!!! :D

Met up with LL for dinner, it's been a long while since i went out with her. I think the last time i saw her was like 6 months ago?? Yeah, i'm a lousy friend who doesn't bother to engage any form of contact with them unless they call me up. Maybe that's the reason i'm not left with much friends ever since i graduted from Sec Sch and ITE.
We met up at Marche Herren, just got food (crepe, rostti and steak), she couldn't eat much...so i ended up gobbling up all the left over... Food is good there IMO, it's been a long while since i went there. We just eat and chatted about both our on-going life. How's things are going with her b/f, how's work...etc

Suddenly she dropped the bombshell, "So when are you going to get married?"

I was like.... (gave her a blank face)

"It was over a month again!" was my reply for her...

She seems stunned!

Anyway i told her i don't want to talk about it anymore...the chapter is closed already!

She talked about some of the things she's troubled with, some of the stuff she faced about the future.
I think as we all grow up, problems just seems to come attached along. Kinda sucks!

Anyway i just hope that she doesn't end up like me...cherish what you have!

Hear Ye, Hear Ye

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The More the Merrier...

Have you ever got bullied by people around you?
Whether it's people you work with, people you live with etc....
Why do they bully you?
Is it because you are too friendly? too easy-going? So they take you for granted, and start to pile SHIT on you?
Really confused now...
Will speaking up make a difference? Or will it just make things worse? What if the person is somebody that you have to face everyday? What if that person control your fate? What if??
So if you manage to speak up? How is life going to be after the "Speaking Up" session?
I hate confrontation... Is it really necessary?

All this is really getting me down... Just pondering on this... Makes me so tired...

Went to the Fiesta Japanese Resturant at Causeway Point for lunch with 6 other colleagues of mine!!! Food wasn't too bad, 6 out of 7 of us, order the same set meal...kinda funny huh??? Finally got to taste chawamush (steam egg), one of my fave dish, been a while since i had japanese food...had a salmon sushi, a soft shell crab handroll....yum yum
Maybe we should do this more often, that is, if my wallet can take the pinch...LOL

So got your money? FP... You know what to do??? Wahahahaha...
By the way, if ya sick...get well soon okay???

It's midweek!!!! Cheers...

Life is never fair, just learn to deal with it...

Finally, life is picking up for me, i manage to pass my Maths!!! Yay!!! although it's just a D+ grade, but it's slightly better then i expected it to be. As for the rest of the modules, i got a A for the language subject, A for AutoCad and a Dist for Circuit Stimulation...
Distinction leh, first time in my life!!! Never would i expect that i could get a dist grade, i guess this is really a timely boost of motivation for me, in picking up the pieces of my life. I wonder who else got dist too??? Hahahaha
Strangely, the three modules that i managed to score well in, were taught by female lecturers! Which make me wonder why? Firstly, The three lecturer are not those younger newbie lecturers, they're probably what you can call "Shi Nai" age group...

My colleagues always tease that i can "click" well with "shi nai". Actually i don't want to be thick-skin, but i always seems to get along with women in that age-group. I don't understand why either! I guess God is fair in a way, since i can't really 'click' with gals my age, so he made it up in another way? Wahahahahah.... Think i'm losing it!!!
I wonder if it got anything to do with my grades. The maths module was taught by a male lecturer, thus the "just made it" result... Hmmmm...

I hope i can see all of my ploy-mates when the new term starts. From what i heard, most of them passed, expect for a few. Don't know what are their plans, i really hope that they don't give up. I know it's not gonna be easy to do the damn module a whole year again. But....just don't give up guys!!!

Checking mail today in the office, got a personality test email from one of my senior, decided to give it a go and it turn out pretty accurate .

here's the result;

向日葵 --任何时候都那么朝气蓬勃，灿烂而华丽。具有女皇般的存在感，容易谱出戏剧性的恋曲。
基本特征 在任何地方都同样华丽，谁都会很自然地仰慕你的活力。有很强的存在感，你有不会输给任何人的能量和很强的自尊心，有与生俱来的女王气质。没有任何根据的自信使你容易以自我为中心，所有的事情都要符合你的心意才行，不能容忍在人之下的好强使你经常会与人发生冲突，也正是这样的性格让你没有任何畏惧堂堂正正地追求自己的梦想，所以可以开出又大又美的花朵。
恋爱中的向日葵 如台风般热烈的恋爱，对方也会不由自主地被你带如其中。表面可爱但实际很坚强，你对爱情的坚定决心会使对方从心底接受你，你们的爱情会稳固而长久。但注意不要爱得过分。过浓的爱会让对方感到压力，也会破坏自己的好运气。将你的能量平均分给恋爱和工作最合适，即使结婚也不会影响工作。正如向日葵生长的环境，你需要外面的灿烂阳光，你会拥有家庭与恋爱以外的让你为之热衷的事业。
幸福秘诀 向日葵需求如果得不到满足，就会给周围的人带来麻烦。她会将自己的郁闷发泄出来，以致使别人和自己都受到伤害。因此按照自己的想法做自己想做的事情是最好不过的，不要眼中只有太阳，只有自己的梦想。注意不要对一些小事太介意。你有对任何事情都有过于计较的倾向，所以应该经常对自己进行客观的观察，反省后再往前走。
向日葵的朋友 能够真正理解看起来粗心大意、但是实际上内心很细致的向日葵的就要数满天星了。能够一直跟随着任性霸道的你的最佳伴侣是百合。
So, basically i'm a 向日葵, and the most suitable flower for me is 百合花. I know i shouldn't have done this stupid thing, but i keyed in her birthday and guess what??? She is a 百合花, so it means she is a prefect match for me....or should i say "was"

Life is never fair, just learn to deal with it...

Yeah, even till now, i miss her...but i know i can't do that anymore. She's attached now... it's wrong!!! but it's too late to regret now. I got to stop thinking about her, she's a mistake i made...i got to stop at this mistake... Sometimes i wonder if she does think of me anymore, not as a friend. I guess not... not her style...

Monday is coming, people!!! Get ready for Monday Blues!!! Wahahahaha

Careless Whisper....

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But noone's gonna dance with me
Please stay

And I'm never gonna dance again
Guilty feet have got no rhythm
Though it's easy to pretend
I know your not a fool



Happy weekend!!!

Love is not time, is timing....
Hahahaha....funny....that's all

Thanks for all the smses and emails, i'm getting back on my feet liao...

It's a mistake and i just got to learn from it! That's all! Not much too be thinking about anymore.
Like a book, when you finish the chapter, you just have to close it and put it down. That's how life works...

Thanks, KKK, for the offer, but not free this weekend, can't go find you to take me go jalan jalan...hahahaha


Finally it's my off-day, after 4 tough days, especially when you have to work with my senior...


Like, PR said... you still young lah!!! If somebody can forget such a long relatioship and get together with somebody new within a month. You should know liao lah. Rome is not bulit in a day. Probably, even before you somebody is wooing her liao le. And the distance le? You are here, she is there. Aiyah bound going to happen one lah! Just sooner or later! You still young lah! Still have lots of chances one lah! Always hate it when people say that i'm young!!! Makes me feel like a kid!!! Maybe when i'm at my workplace i'm really a kid to all of them. So that's why all of them treat me like a younger brother...

"Shuai" (good-looking) How do you define "Shuai"? I know this word doesn't have anything to do with me, But i hate it when those PRC colleagues use it on me. Firstly, Could you all please stop it! It's really getting on my nerve. But as the good colleagues i am, i can't lose my temper with you ladies over this sort of petty matter!!! Secondly, i know how i look and i'm 1000% sure i'm nowhere near "shuai", so either you people are having a good time making fun of me, or you are just plain blind!!!!

That's all for tonight....


Hai...she just had to turn up and screw all my offdays up....DAMN!!!

Chelsea lost!!!

How could Liverpool won??? I think the Gods must be really taking care of them for them to win this match against Chelsea.
My boss's boss (liverpool supporter) was delighted today!!! I guess Liverpool is finally doing something to actually make him feel proud supporting them...

but looking ahead, don't think they are good enough to beat the favorites, AC Milan...whose probably going to win this morning game against PSV....



Nothing much today, just suddenly have the urge to do some travelling alone, to some asian country first, cos european countries are too expensive. The options i'm looking at are probably Taiwan, Shanghai or Bali



Hopeful the july's tioman trip is still on schedule... i really need a break after all this crap that's happening in my life.



Exam result are going to be anounce on the 5th of May, hope that i clear the stupid Maths paper...if not....


thanks Fp for your words of concern this morning








what kind of car do you drive? In singapore, most owners only drive their singapore cars for 7 to 10 years, till the COE expires... But when you are a malaysian, how long do you keep driving your malaysian car?? I had one that i spent 6 years on... and the car decide to change a new owner... hahaha
Like MT said, time to join the queue and bid for a COE and try a local-registered car... you might actually like it (.')
I don't know... maybe i don't need a car now... there are more important things in life to worry about now...

Cheers!!!

i'm back!!!

Finally the long weekend is over, it's been a daze! Totally don't know what i was doing neither do i know what i was thinking about. Some personal problems surfaced...realised that i wasn't as strong as i thought i am. Something to take note about!!!

I just felt it was stupid for her to be with somebody just within a month. I mean...what can he give her? Is there even any form of like or love in it? I really can't think of it. She's terribly upset over the breakup, i can understand that. But that guy! He's just providing her some company and for that she's with him? I thought she knew the difference between Company and Love....apparently i was Wrong...very wrong...But who am i to judge???

Thanks you guys who had noticed that something was wrong with me. and thanks for the concern. I think i just need to try and shift my focus in life. Can't be standing at the same spot forever. It's hurts.... but slowly the tears are drying up... nothing much to be sad about. I chose this path... and i even if i had to walk all the way alone to the end, so be it...i guess...

i can't believe that i'm hoping for lessons to start as soon as possible...i'm going crazy!!!


Congrat and Congrats... Mag!!!! or should i say Mrs Lye!!!!! Wahahahahaha....

Regarding the big boss issue...shourded in secrecy it is.... but as my source :P tells me.... he's fine....
Sources say that he probably offended somebody in the past, and that somebody or some group just waited for their chance to take revenge...and just like that he was "head-shoted"
Don't know what are his plans for now...

another sleepless night....tears are always by the side of my eyes....why??
Because i just lost my Love of my life, the only gal whom i really only loved...Why am i so stupid??? Why??
I love her....how much? i don't noe.... I just love her very much.... I guess love doesn't need any reasons at all right?

The things we planned.... the things we were going to be doing together... How and Where....
Shanghai and Japan.... To go look for Wu Yang, to eat the Da Niang Dumplings..... Japan, Tokyo Disneyland, Shopping at all the famous districts... Where are they gonna be??? Gone???

Just like the sand castle you spend so much building... And all of a sudden, the waves came and swept everything off....
Nothing is left... And you can't help wondering why??? Why did it have to come onto my beach? Why???

I Love you... Although i know what i say now is almost close to meaningless...but you know....
In your heart you know,,, it means something to you... You know... Unless you prefer to deny it,,,
Then i guess there's nothing i can do... but to shed more tears???

雪中莲 (xue zhong lian) is such a appropriate song now.... such a beautiful song....

6 years of time together... is not something so easily forgotten.... You know it, And so do I....
What we had is much much more and stronger than all this crap we are going through...
Why does it have to end like this??? Does it have to?? No, it doesn't have to end like this... IT DOESN'T

I don't even know why i'm typing all this out....

Because i need to let her know all this,,, Even though it too late??? Like she said....

It's never too late.... Cos what we had was much much deeper then she can realised....
Cos it's all in the heart....
Pls don't deny the heart of it's voice....Please....
And don't deny me.....

So sorry that i took up so much of her time...depriving her of bath time...and she have to wake up at 7 tomorrow...

I miss you!!!!
I really love you!!!! You know i do...
傻老婆 (sha lao po) don't know if i can still call you that...

"To Err is Human"..... Yes, i screwed up....but i'm willing to spend the rest of my life loving and making up to you...
This i promise.... What i need is a chance....
















More light is shed today, regarding the disappearance of the big boss...
Mood in the department??? Very low morale, at least that's how i feel....
He is so spiritual to the whole department.... Like a father... to me.... At least that's the feeling he gave me...
A mentor to JL, A good boss to JJ....
Hai....

freaking day!!!

I still can’t believe what I read…
But I don’t think I have a choice of whether to accept or not.
Like she said she’s move on, and she’s happy.
I guess she’s right! Things are not the same as 3 years ago. The main difference here? There’s somebody else waiting in the wing…
Hope you will be happy in the arms of your newfound love!!!
And i can totally give up an hope of a patch back....
Pls don't contact me anymore, it's just for the better...

Freaking day…lots of bad news been circulating in my head…
First, the above one I just mentioned…
Second, the big head in my department is gone… Why?? I have no idea either…
it's just so sudden!!! And just yesterday i was having breakfast with him and my supervisor...and in a puff!
He's out of the company... Sad?? Not really, course i'm not really close too him nor does my job requires me to report direct to him...But he's such a good boss, in my other colleagues' eyes....
How did this happen??? That's the only thought that i have in my mind....
How? How?

Hopefully more will be reveal in the coming weeks....imagine a director level personel can just disappear over-night! What else can't happen...Life is so unpredictable and fraglie...

All the best to him though....he's a good man!!! God will watch over good people like him...Sigh...


An quan gan (sense of security)....what is that??? I really wonder....just because i'm 6 feet tall. Do you measure An Quan Gan by one's height???

Anyway...i don't have anybody in my life now to give her that feeling....YES!! Her....i'm totally straight!!!

Sorry my friend...

hmmm....think i really pissed a friend off today....
Was really tired from work and i sort of dozed off to sleep around 8 plus and by the time i woke up, the time was like 12 am
OMG....how did i manage to dozed off for so long???
Anyway, my friend wanted me to help check something online....by the time i got back to her, i think she had somebody else to do the job already...
Feel so bad, can't help at all....
Workload at the company is getting more and more....kinda drained everyday....
Looks like i must go find some sort of recreational activties....

Who do you define somebody as rich???? By the way he behave??? Or the stuff he used or carry????
Hmmm....this is what one my colleague, FP, said...
FP: "Actually Brian you are very rich one hor"
Me: "Huh"
FP: "i saw you at the security with the new apple notebook"
Me: "oh, that har"
FP: "Actually your whole family live at Bt Timah area one right?"
Me: "ya lor, ya lor....my dad purposely want us to experience commoner's way of life so we shifted from landed property to normal HDB flat lor"

Hmmm...why is it when you carry stuff that are a big high techie, people assume you are rich??? Or is it because they don't think i can afford all the new stuff with my merage paycheck???

Hmmm...but i think i'll also pass the same judgement too....

hmmm...what is Jin Ying? (Elites)
what kind of difference do they make in the society?
What about the rest of the folks who are not elites, who prefer to live life in their own ways?
People who just want to get on with their lives as normally as possible....
I think i'm one of those people, i'm what people might say as a lack of ambitions. But i feel that how do you justify if you are consider successful??? And does being a successful persom equate to being a Elite??? Are you going to be happy then?
I don't know, if i know, i probably won't be bloggin here :)
I guess the most important thing is life is that you are HAPPY and knowing what you seek for and want in life...
Peace Out....

wondering....

Why are there pure boy or girl schools??? Where do they come from??? And people who actually see this article, were you from a one-gender only school or a mixed-gender one?

One of my colleague, JL, say it’s tradition…. what kind of tradition is that? Makes me wonder??? Who actually came up with this idea? And why? Anybody out there know the reason? Please enlighten me!!!! I wonder how does it feel like studying in a environment whereby everywhere you turn and see is the same sex (beside the female teachers, if you are in the all boy’s school), kinda boring right? Come to think of it, it’s pretty good too with all the competition, everybody trying to be Alpha Male.
Anyway turn out JL was from a boy secondary school, and he seems really fine with it!!! But who am I to pass judgment???

Sitting at MacDonald’s now…I can’t get the WIFI thingy to work…Damn!! Think I’m going to leave here soon.

Really tired…. can’t sleep….

Don’t you think the human being is the strangest creature in the world???
I do! Course I’m one of those strange one….
It’s been a month or so since I broke up with my girlfriend of 6 plus years….
Everything is like such a bloody swirl…I really felt a part of me has suddenly died.
Why is it that people don’t cherish what the have, only to regret when they have lost it?
Been pondering on this question for weeks….
I really wish I had never initialed the breakup…and I really want her back…

I found my best love, but I didn’t treasure her.
I felt regretful after that
It’s the ultimate pain in the world
If God can give me another chance, I will tell her three words
“I Love You”
And if God want me to set a time limit, I’ll say this love will last ten thousand years.

I hereby declare....

Today will the offical day whereby my blog will be given the breath of life!!!!!