Random thoughts

Don't know what is wrong with me...
Am i jealous of you?
Or envy?
It's so good to have somebody "looking" after you...
Maybe just a slight feeling of losing you???
A feeling of not being able to be on par with you?
That you might not have enough time for me?
as you rise through the ranks and I'm still stuck in this dead-end job of mine?
Having some much respect for "him" till it becomes a kind of idolizing???
Are you priorities with me?? Or??? Will i have to take second place compared to "him"?

Meaningless random thoughts that rumble through my mind.
I just want to make it clear though!!!
All of the above flashes through my mind only...
I'm not dwelling on them or whatsoever.

Typing this out on my blog is just another way of letting things out of my head...
No need to justify them or whatsoever, just read them and love me more.
:P