MST...

In another few days, mid-semester tests is going to start....
Taking a couple of days away from work to study....
Seriously i haven't done much.... don't know what to study.

So happy for my (younger) brother, seems like he's finally over the stupid gal whom he was head over heels for...
Let's hope it remains this way. She's just another b#$*h toying with his feelings. Really don't understand what took him so long to realised that. I guess the end of my own relationship, somehow shown him that he too can move on from being trap in this endless loop.
Fast-forward to now, it seems like he's surrounded with gals ever since his started his Engineering Course in NYP. Whether he's in his class, or in his swimming CCA.... I'm so envious... And it seems like he really closed with this particular gal in his class... From their conversations, seems like this gal pretty much have a good impression of my brother. But i think he's probably too numb-skulled to realise anything. Wahahahahaha

What's there to look forward too?

These few days i kept asking myself these really dumb questions...
What's am i doing? Why am i here? What purpose do i served?
It's like i'm in the Matrix...am i a real human being? or just another battery

What kind of difference can i make? In my own life and other people's lives?
So confused!!! I feel so aimless...
Like dropping into a bottomless pit, free falling deeper into the void.

Why am i doing this diploma course? What do i hope to achieve?
To earn more money? To go higher up the corporate ladder?
If it's to make more money, i'm sure there's probably faster ways to make money...
To find a better job? Maybe....

When i was attached, i know i have to upgrade myself...so that i can provide my loved one with at least a decent lifestyle
But now i'm all alone...
What the motivation to push myself?
Ask a friend this, her reply was, "That's easy mah, go get yourself a girlfriend lor"

Haha...easier said then done

I think i need to set some sort of goals for myself...but what? Any advice?

Who can give me some answers?

I should be busy revising my notes for the upcoming test, instead i'm wasting my time pondering over all this crap.

What's wrong with me today? Everything is in a blur...
Head feel so empty...i feel so down... must be one of those "lost my mind" day!

Been listening to this song on my ipod....
"No Ordinary Love" by Sade

I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
I gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love
You took my love

Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby

I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
I gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love
You took my love

I keep crying
I keep trying for you
There's nothing like you and I baby

This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love

When you came my way
You brightened every day
With your sweet smile

Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby

This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love

I keep crying
I keep trying for you
There's nothing like you and I baby

This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love
This is no ordinary love
No ordinary love

Keep trying for you
Keep crying for you
Keep flying for you
Keep flying I'm falling

I'm falling

Keep trying for you
Keep crying for you
Keep flying for you
Keep flying I'm falling
I'm falling