another sleepless night....tears are always by the side of my eyes....why??
Because i just lost my Love of my life, the only gal whom i really only loved...Why am i so stupid??? Why??
I love her....how much? i don't noe.... I just love her very much.... I guess love doesn't need any reasons at all right?

The things we planned.... the things we were going to be doing together... How and Where....
Shanghai and Japan.... To go look for Wu Yang, to eat the Da Niang Dumplings..... Japan, Tokyo Disneyland, Shopping at all the famous districts... Where are they gonna be??? Gone???

Just like the sand castle you spend so much building... And all of a sudden, the waves came and swept everything off....
Nothing is left... And you can't help wondering why??? Why did it have to come onto my beach? Why???

I Love you... Although i know what i say now is almost close to meaningless...but you know....
In your heart you know,,, it means something to you... You know... Unless you prefer to deny it,,,
Then i guess there's nothing i can do... but to shed more tears???

雪中莲 (xue zhong lian) is such a appropriate song now.... such a beautiful song....

6 years of time together... is not something so easily forgotten.... You know it, And so do I....
What we had is much much more and stronger than all this crap we are going through...
Why does it have to end like this??? Does it have to?? No, it doesn't have to end like this... IT DOESN'T

I don't even know why i'm typing all this out....

Because i need to let her know all this,,, Even though it too late??? Like she said....

It's never too late.... Cos what we had was much much deeper then she can realised....
Cos it's all in the heart....
Pls don't deny the heart of it's voice....Please....
And don't deny me.....

So sorry that i took up so much of her time...depriving her of bath time...and she have to wake up at 7 tomorrow...

I miss you!!!!
I really love you!!!! You know i do...
傻老婆 (sha lao po) don't know if i can still call you that...

"To Err is Human"..... Yes, i screwed up....but i'm willing to spend the rest of my life loving and making up to you...
This i promise.... What i need is a chance....
















More light is shed today, regarding the disappearance of the big boss...
Mood in the department??? Very low morale, at least that's how i feel....
He is so spiritual to the whole department.... Like a father... to me.... At least that's the feeling he gave me...
A mentor to JL, A good boss to JJ....
Hai....